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this is where i’m at…but i digress

Greetings,

It’s been awhile. Five months. Joyful times and trying times. Aimless yet hopeful. Aiming yet unsure of a target.

I know I’m not alone. I don’t know which was worse. When I was in my early 20’s I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I was solely present-minded but not in a good way. No prospects, aspirations, or dreams. Now in my mid 30’s I feel like I know what I want to do yet it’s either too lofty or grasping for the wind. I moved to a big city (Philadelphia) thinking I would find something of substance but, as of yet, nothing. Don’t get me wrong I’m enjoying many aspects of Philadelphia like the food, activities, sights, street fairs, brews, etc. But I haven’t really found my place. I didn’t find my place where I previously lived either but that was due to other factors like family drama and passive aggressive family member going behind my back to break my then girlfriend now wife apart. I needed out of there. Now we are thinking of moving elsewhere in a few years. I’d like to live in a city where I don’t have to fear school aged children while walking across them on the street since they like to randomly attack people but I digress.

I also have an issue with shame, lack of self-confidence, latent anger, jealousy, etc. I can’t even count how many times I’ve threatened to delete my blog since apparently no one cares when I share them on Social Media. I did delete my blog’s FB page due to lack of any traffic. I desperately want to fit in and be not only accepted but approved and honored and celebrated, which some may say is unhealthy. But I don’t think it’s necessarily unhealthy. We are all individuals seeking to make our own stamp on the world but within a community of mutual respect and honor. I have yet found said community. The current fellowship I go to was amounting to a great church with people who looked after others and attempted community but found out, though I probably am judging with incomplete knowledge, there is community but the usual clique type community. Popular, hipster, millennial types. Church is less about being a community but more about serving the community. Church is life to some but that just isn’t my flavor. I love openness and togetherness. Diversity in community where every single person has a voice and something to offer, not as a commodity, but as an integral stone is the church God Himself is building that is outside four walls or a fog machine. I’m just being honest and may offend some but I feel it needs to be said. I mean why would believers need to schedule time to just chill only if nothing is happening at Church? Can we just hang out without it being scheduled in the Church’s bulletin or FB event? But I digress.

Back to shame and such. I know that everyone won’t honor everyone and everyone isn’t the QB/Pastor who gets all the attention and gifts and support. There are a lot of us on the line who protect, serve, and support those who say they care but hard to see it in action. On the flip side even public honor of another can be done as an honor to one’s self. I recently wanted a clip of a church who ordered pizza and made the delivery person come on stage and give a $100 tip. I mean, hey, I’d take a $100 tip but it seems—though I can’t judge their heart—that when you have to do it on stage with a radio voice and give it $10 a time to emphasize how great it is just seams…inauthentic.

It’s not wonder that Arthur Burk has teaching about Life After Church because so many people are leaving the institutional church for real community. Where everyone has a voice and not just the QB who wins the MVP. What if all the corner churches and mega churches stopped having Sunday morning services where we hear one sermon rehashed from last year and heard what the whole body has to say. What if what Joe has to say will set Paul free but will never hear because the “Man Of God” is the only one anointed? What if rest were actually practiced in fellowship? What is noise did not equal worship? What if sunday’s sermon did not equal intimacy with God? What if we, as a body of believers, actually starting growing up and fending for ourselves? What if we left the milk behind and ventured towards the carving block for a good slice of prime rib? But I digress.

Back to shame and such again. I want to be a celebrated individual within non commoditized community. What if honor is based and not placed. What if we honored people based upon God’s innate nature within them and not a false honor placed on someone due to their gifts or what we can get from them? We each have intrinsic value which reflects the nature of God. I sick of this more of God less of me bullshit. That was specifically regarding John the Baptist’s ministry. It must be more of God and more of me because I am an heir of God and co-heir with Christ. We are laden with guilt in the form of false humility. We have a glory people! Jesus has given us the glory to God gave to him and until we see ourselves and other that way the shame that I struggle with will continue to be a struggle. We…I…continue to resurrect the dead old man and live the law that we can’t fulfill. But I digress.

So what do I want for myself and family? Above all else to be where God wants us. To find our place as living stones in the river of God on this earth. I feel called to prayer ministry and teaching and writing(all of which will probably never pay the bills). I also would absolutely love to create a retreat for those who are living the above. Where they can come where there are no schedule or calendars. No pressure or stress to server or entertain others. A place of community where solitude and engagement with others are equally celebrated and supported. For the leader or the layperson, the pastor or the usher. The person who sits in the back pew or red cushioned chair with the plastic caps on the end of the chair backs. Where the communion table is not a preserved “grape” juice and paper wafer but a table of conversations and real food. A place where there are no positions, offices, denominations, or titles. A place where a suit and tie doesn’t make you more spiritual and a shirt and cargo shorts doesn’t make you “less religious”. Pretense and pretentious free. Where numbers don’t matter and intimacy isn’t on a scale to be judged by others. But I digress.

It’s hard to be in a holding pattern. Not knowing where you are or where to go can be quite frustrating. I can only do what I know to do until I know to do differently. I’ll work my IT job for as long as I need to. It’s not my passion but I’m doing it. I wish I could be one of those who never have to work a day of their life’s meaning their vocation is their passion and they are good at it. I want to also have a nice sized family and be able to provide for my wife all she needs and wants. I above all else want us to be and to do it together as a team. But so far I feel a failure at most of it right now. I’m overweight, not making monetarily what I need to have a family, don’t have a suitable house for a family, live in a city where it’s hard to raise a family, and hard to find encouragement to get to where I need to be. Like most men it’s hard to need somebody else. But that’s what I need. I wish I could find someone who can be a mentor in my life. Someone has the time and mutual bond to do so. I just really need encouragement. But I digress.

Thanks to those who’ve read till here. This post has really been a mixture of emotions, thoughts, ramblings, and heartaches. Deep down I am hopeful and optimistic. At the same time I’m fearful how others will react to this post but here goes nothing…but I digress.

 

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Thank You!!!

I just posted this on my Facebook page:

It’s amazing how many people can be reached via Social Media. My first blog post was posted January 27th, 2014. Since then I’ve reached 167 countries! I have 1,539 followers and have had 47,024 views and counting! With 2,480 Likes and 799 comments I’m amazed from those who support me in this. I’ve grown and am growing everyday and I seek and dig in the Scripture. But all those numbers don’t matter in the end. If the Lord wants someone like me or you to write and only He sees it and is pleased than that is all the matters! Thanks again!

I want to thank all my followers and readers. Thank you for reading, liking, sharing, commenting, and praying. And I want to thank my Father in Heaven for creating me as a builder and no longer a consumer. As a Teacher redemptive gift, it has been a joy to dig deep and seek questions to answers that some have and some have never thought to ask.

If you want to sow into this blog and ministry you can do so below. Thank you all!

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I’ve Started a YouTube Channel!

This was kind of birthed through doing ministry with an individual. We weren’t able to connect via phone one week so I decided to create a YouTube video…and then it dawned on me, I should create a YouTube channel. So I did!

It will mostly be simple prayers to bless your spirit. I will also include soul and body blessings as well as other prayers and possible rambles.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOQ1-RJJckEiKTmBVYNIg-g is the link to my channel. If you have a YouTube account you can subscribe and get notifications when I post a new video. Starting out the quality of the video won’t be the best but the quality of the content in the video will be great.

I’ve posted prayers in my blogs but sometimes it helps to have someone pray them out loud over you so that’s why I wanted to start the channel.

God Bless!

2015 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2015 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 17,000 times in 2015. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 6 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

Click here to see the complete report.

If interested click above. To all that have read, commented, likes, shared, re-blogged, I thank from the bottom of my heart. May 2016 continue forward with revelation, insight, inner healing, deliverance, repentance, maturity, and sonship all by God’s grace, mercy, power, and discipline.

Things have been a tad foggy…I could use a little help

I’m not one to ask for help. Could be my maleness or my Polishness; unsure at this point. It could very well be my soul vying for dominion because God knows the soul has had the throne uncontested for some time. I feel in my spirit a satisfaction that comes from knowing the affection of my Heavenly Father regardless of activity. My soul has the need for affirmation and perfection, both of which will never come outside of Him. Right now the soul is pinning down the spirit and the count is two with one second left to spare. It may be a last-ditch effort to show the spirit who is boss…at that is where you may come in.

I have 9 blogs in draft, one being a short story, and a two books held in my spirit: a novel and non-fiction. At the moment time is the commodity in need, even though Ravel and Rachmaninoff stole some of it when it was available. So far 100% of my blogs have been written in the midst of turmoil; the turmoil of my job. I work an IT help desk job so I am on and off the phone all day and attempt to write in the between. When I go home I tend to thwart all needs for a computer. All writers know “writer’s block” and loathe it at times. I struggle with that as well.

I am not a popular blogger and don’t have hundreds of likes, shares, or views but that doesn’t matter. This blog is more for me than you but I do it for you more than me (if that makes any sense at all). I am asking for prayer. That I would access the time I have and that it would be redeemed. Also that this last-ditch effort of the soul would be thwarted by an even stronger reversal from my spirit (after all the spirit loves the soul much than the soul loves the spirit (at least according the soul’s current view-point)). That any all fog would lift.

I’m also “planning” on moving to another state and city both of which are Teacher redemptive gift which I also am a Teacher redemptive gift (see http://www.sandylandry.com/) There is an immense blessing that would come with this and an immense ability to respond and redeem the negatives that can also creep in. I could use prayer for a job for my wife and I that could make for a much smoother transition being as I am not moving for work but for God’s leading. He’s provided before and I know He will provide again.

I’m learning and filling myself up with much teaching and tools that I need and that I can minister to others with. As a Teacher I am prone to want to get every teaching, listen to every sermon, or read every book I can on a subject. This can be good but at the same time could take up that commodity called time. I had some responses from my blog: I’d Love To Help In Any Way I Can and so far fruit has come out of it. Prayer points for that would be increased wisdom, discernment, and insight.

In the midst of great things happening things can still get foggy. Please pray that either the fog will lift our for my spirit to focus on the Light in the midst of it. I also am Asthmatic, which sucks, and dealing with panic/stress related feelings in my body both of which I’m looking for insight into healing and deliverance from. I’m also overweight so I need some healthy discipline and self-control in that area. Both Asthma and panic/stress issue hold me back from exercise. The other day I was listening to two individuals who love Jesus but are riddled with health issues and it breaks my heart that surviving is so hard using artificial and fabricated medicines. “White knuckling” life in the midst of a promised abundant life. I wanted to weep and I’m welling up slightly recalling the conversation.

Above all I want a more intimate walk with my Daddy, Dad, Father, and King. To walk in full Sonship. To hear, feel, see, and experience Him more fully. That my spirit would rise to dominion and my soul would finally rest in submission to my spirit and that the full transfiguration process would continue to progress as I look with an unveiled face.

Thank you and God bless!

PS: thank you to those who have sown into my blog with finances, prayer, likes, comments, encouragement, and admonishment. I know change is happening in you and I and I’m blessed to be a part of it. It is this that spurs me onward.

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101 things I…

…love, like, have learned, want to learn, haven’t learned, and a few random things and quotes for your possible enjoyment in no particular order.

  1. I like predatory birds hence my feature image
  2. I have had a couple prophetic dreams of said predatory birds
  3. I would love to try by hand at falconry (It’s a lost art form)
  4. I like food. It is interesting to note that food was used before music in Old Testament worship. Also communion in the New Testament was a table full of food and not a dissolvable wafer with Welch’s cup worth a half a sip. Also wine was used hence some being drunk.
  5. I would love to study Quantum Physics
  6. I wish I could see in the spiritual realm better. Like Quantum Physics there is much more to the spiritual realm that doesn’t mean the natural eye. If the natural world was created out of Christ and is His taste then I must conclude that the spiritual realm is much, much more intricate, expansive, deeper, and higher than the seen.
  7. I have learned the reality of the human spirit and am learning the proper structure of spirit, soul, body relationship and how the spirit is to have dominion.
  8. When talking about God or praying almost always using the word “Father.” To me it seems much more relational and put things into perspective.
  9. God loves me and likes me. I’m His friend and brother. If Jesus even calls Judas “Friend” than He must be pretty intentional when He calls anyone something. (See Matthew 26:50)
  10. I’m a son and not a slave
  11. God turned a person who hated reading and writing into a man who loves reading and writing. Or should I say He breathed upon a fire within me which I didn’t know existed?
  12. I want to write a book. Two or more to be precise. One novel and one non-fiction.
  13. Also want to try my hand at writing a short story on this blog. I’ve done one poem (See Awake)
  14. Sometime God’s mercy is getting a little bit of what you deserve (See Galatians 6:7)
  15. I believe I am Teacher Redemptive Gift (See this link and this link I can’t vouch for anything else on these sites)
  16. I struggle with dream interpretation however I can be very prophetic at times
  17. I firmly believe Jesus is coming back for a beautiful, overcoming bride and not a struggling fearful church
  18. If I go to the Scriptures to find out who everyone else instead of myself my agenda is skewed
  19. I love the idea of living and loving without an agenda but my analytic reasoning messes with me regarding the statement. In other words if I am living and loving without an agenda is my agenda living and loving without one? I know, confusing isn’t it? I mean my assessment of the statement.
  20. The “New Age” has done its best at perverting divine truths, principles, and ideas and have stolen them for their own gain…because the Church has abandoned things unseen.
  21. God won’t set you up for failure…unless that is what you need.
  22. We live for an Audience of One where the praises at our right hand and criticism at our left meaning nothing
  23. However if I shun the voice of my family I may set myself up for that failure in #21
  24. A wise man loves the taste of his own medicine
  25. You know you are a Pharisee if your life’s motto is “Do as I say, not as I do” – A Graham Cookeism fashioned from my own mind
  26. The Kingdom of Heaven is like a polished stone
  27. God has not only given me grace but has lavished it upon me and you. (See Lavished!)
  28. I oftentimes utilize Google for word definitions and right click and choose correct spelling when I see those annoying red squiggly lines under my misspelled words
  29. Problems are a prerequisite for a revelation from God
  30. Shame is a dirty mirror. Never let it determine the image you see
  31. I am not wretch but a saint
  32. Romans 7 is not the life of a Christian battling sin but a believer who doesn’t know they are dead to the law
  33. I love useless knowledge. It sometimes actually helps but most of the time is works in jokes
  34. I wished I lived in NYC…but at the same time I wish I lived in a log cabin in the woods
  35. When it comes to intercession I lean towards undercover sniper style and not front line in your face style
  36. I am curious as to the spiritual implications of the “Baby Witching Hour”
  37. The biggest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he doesn’t exist – The Usual Suspects
  38. I had a dream with an old pastor of mine where he said I am an exquisitor. Looked it up and fits me to a T.
  39. I curious as to why after God changed Jacob’s name to Israel, He still referred to him as Jacob at times
  40. If I knew I couldn’t fail I would pray and minister to all in the Mental Health Wards that they would get total freedom
  41. I would also, if I knew I wouldn’t fail, love to be able to prophetically find all missing and abducted people to help the authorities find them
  42. I sometimes think the same way that Walter Mitty does
  43. God allows in His wisdom what He could easily prevent by His power – Graham Cooke
  44. I feel called to teach in front of churches but am terrified of public speaking
  45. I used to write Rap songs 5 years ago (they can still be found online) and still want to write more at times
  46. 1 John 4:17 is my life verse. Still learning and pondering the implications of it
  47. I love language. I would love to learn more of Spanish. Also Polish, Hebrew, Greek, and Mandarin
  48. I love some reality TV shows. The ones where people finally get recognized for talents and gifts that they have spent years and years to get by training and building themselves. It may seem superficial at first but we have a desire to be recognized and make a difference. This is why I love Prophecy!
  49. I would love to be in full-time inner healing & deliverance ministry…not the “demon under every rock” kinda deliverance
  50. Some times I play both sides of the field and by taking both sides of an argument and try to find middle ground.
  51. There is a difference between wrestling with God and fighting against God
  52. I am coming to the belief that we can and will be transfigured just like Jesus was…before any rapture(if that even happens) or when Jesus comes back physically
  53. There is more to us than meets the eye – Transformers
  54. I want to travel the world. I love cultures and I believe God created many different cultures
  55. I’m not a fan of the term “counter-culture”
  56. I believe that when Jesus said He only does what He sees the Father doing that He meant it…including going to the cross
  57. I believe soul ties are real…and have recently learned about spirit ties
  58. I love Pit Bulls and I don’t believe in breed discrimination
  59. I also believe in generational deliverance and blessing
  60. Paradigms power perception and perceptions power emotions. Most emotions are responses to perception – what you think is true about a given situation. If your perception is false, then your emotional response to it will be false too. So check your perceptions, and beyond that check the truthfulness of your paradigms – what you believe. Just because you believe something firmly doesn’t make it true. Be willing to reexamine what you believe. – Wm. Paul Young
  61. I wonder if this is true
  62. I’m not a big Old Testament reader however my usual bible reading, when I do regularly read, includes Psalms and Proverbs and New Testament epistles
  63. I’m finding it hard to come up with 101 things…
  64. Forgive me for making my denomination the denominator and not the numerator – from Please Forgive Me
  65. Triangulation is a relationship killer (See He Said She Said)
  66. I don’t like the term “God wants to use you”
  67. God’s desire and your necessity are co-laboring in your problem to manifest His promise
  68. Never assume tone in text, social media messages/comments, or emails. Only an emoji can determine somewhat of the tone
  69. I believe God came as a Father because a Father is what was/is needed most (See Why A Father?)
  70. God is making Josephs, fathers to Pharaohs and making Moseses like God to Pharaohs
  71. My needs need to transfigured into glorious stepping stones. My wants need to be there without the gravitational pull of disappointment. For I do have an appointment but until Presence cuts the veil I remain living with God in the present with His Presence with an expectancy of future Promise. – When Needs Overcome Wants
  72. I am learning what Church is all about and what is it’s meaning
  73. I find it hard to recognize people no longer after the flesh…especially when driving
  74. I’m tired of the Schisms in the Isms
  75. God’s wisdom is truly multi-colored and multi-faceted
  76. The incarnation is the single most beautiful and inviting thing to have ever happened in all of history. That the God who we kept distant, broke through our preconceived notions and obliterated our false views of Himself. We denied Him access to ourselves yet came inviting us to Himself.
  77. Fruit is the foundation for the gifts to have their full and safest expression
  78. I’m frustrated that I don’t know what my recurring dreams mean
  79. The stories of Mephibosheth and Joshua the High Priest bring me to tears
  80. I am trained and certified in Sozo, Healing Rooms, and Elijah House ministry. I also glean a lot of teaching from Arthur Burk and Paul Cox
  81. Past anointing and mantles are simply taking the baton and fulfilling and perfecting what God is already doing or wanted to do
  82. Habitation requires a habitat. Creating a place by making it ready to receive what it was designed for. This is what the Church is about. There is an interesting word in the Greek and it is, hetoimazō, which means to make the necessary preparations, get everything ready and drawn from the oriental custom of sending on, before kings on their journeys, persons to level the roads and make them passable. This word is used for John the Baptist preparing a way in the wilderness (see Mark 1:3) and the Bride of Christ making herself ready (see Rev. 19:7). We also see it in how Jesus prepares a place for us so that we can dwell where He is (see John 14:3).
  83. I’ve learned to read the Scripture to find out who God is and who I am…not who the enemy is or the who the Anti-Christ is
  84. I love living in mystery…except when I don’t
  85. I want unity in the worldwide Church. One accord in Acts means to rush along in unison and resembles a musical piece. Several notes combine to form one song.
  86. I always wonder why my name, Jordan, meant. Then God told me. Possessor
  87. I believe in Presence before and over Promise no matter how hard life can be
  88. Inner vows can be a hard pill to swallow
  89. Speaking life is much better than speaking death…even to speaking death to bad things. Life is much better
  90. I firmly believe God shares, is sharing, and will share His glory
  91. Four years ago I didn’t want to live another day because of shame and was almost suicidal…then God broke through with a prophetic word of encouragement
  92. God also broke a huge period of rejection in my life. I used to never have a strong group of friend in school so I didn’t have a lunch table to sit at. A year or so ago I had a vision of this same cafeteria room and Jesus waved me over and gave me a head seat at His table. Now whenever I don’t have a table or no one sits at the table I’m at I just remember Jesus gives me a good seat all the time
  93. God gave me an incredible wife that has seen me through darkness, sin, and despair. I’m a better man because of her
  94. I’m an athletic man in a fat man’s body…#4 get in my way too many times
  95. I feel much younger than 31 years old
  96. I may move to Philadelphia next year in which #4 may get in my way too since Cheesesteaks are my favorite
  97. I’m bad with keeping up with old relationships or any relationship that isn’t right in front of me
  98. My favorite music is rap
  99. I’ve been sober for 11 years
  100. My dream car is a Subaru WRX STI
  101. I’m a huge work in progress and I have barely scratched the surface of the revelation of God to man and man to God

100th blog!!!

It’s definitely been a journey. So what spurred me onto doing a blog? Glad you inquired so inquisitively (yes I spelled that correctly the first time).

Basically I was blowing up my Facebook friend’s timelines, news feeds, or walls depending on whatever it was called at that time. My aunt from Minnesota, where I was born but moved away when I was 3 then moved back when I was 19, where God got ahold of me, and then left again at 21, (ok breath now) said, “Why don’t you start a blog?” I believe someone else recommended that to me also but I don’t quite remember. So I himmed and hawwed (or is it “hemmed and hawed”) about starting one for a while. The thing is previously I wasn’t really serious about growing and seeking His face that much. I went to a great church with great speakers (big name Charismatic speakers) and great prophetic worship that sometimes last hours without needing scripted music lyrics. I was comfortable being fed by someone else’s hand, so to speak. Now this is not to say you can’t be fed by someone else’s hand but with maturity comes self-sufficiency but not self-sufficiency where you isolate and become above rebuke or think more highly than yourself. The self-sufficiency that I’m talking about is where you no longer look to someone else for your growth but you press onto maturity in Him. (See Isaiah 28:9 and Isaiah 28:9)

My problem was I didn’t think I had anything to share. In the real-life world of shapes, sounds, and time I am a man of few words. Very introverted. Introverted to the point when I hear “Stand up and greet someone” in church I either stay seated or go on my phone…but not all the time. Part of that had to do with being raised to not ask questions, not to inquire with “Why?” but just reply, “Yes, dad.” Now over a period of 4+ years I have been regaining my voice back and realizing I do have things to share, maybe wrong or maybe right I don’t know. Even now very few of the people I know is this real world share, comment, or inquire much about my blogs, which I’m ok with. My wife does support me in it 100% and supports my desire to want to write a non-fiction and fiction book sometime in the future. I am however really encouraged to those on WordPress, Facebook, and even Twitter by people sharing, liking, and commenting. It encourages me to continue on with a 101st blog and not quit. If you knew me before I was 20 and before I started this blog in January 2014 you would be surprised I am where I am.

Before I started walking with the Holy Spirit I hated reading, so much that I did maybe 1 or 2 summer reading assignments in High School or 8th grade (I was homeschooled from 1st-7th and skipped 5th (because I didn’t like it…just kidding. I skipped it…I was smart…back then)). I hated reading. I loved being outside or playing video games however. But after I started following the Lord I started to pick up every Christian book I could. Read the Bible all the way through, I was a sponge at that point. But I still hated writing. Then someone mentioned starting a blog so I launched out and signed up. It’s been an amazing thing in my life.

I did leave that one church and started going to another local church which has few speakers but still good worship and good teaching. This kind of incentivized me on to going after the Lord for myself by seeking what has been implanted instead of waiting in a prayer line for an impartation all the time. I realized that I have something to offer to others and being as I’m not a pastor nor an itinerant minister or singer/songwriter I had to vehicle until I started this blog. It was like the floodgates opened to me and a rush of new thoughts, ideas, personal applications, revelation, etc came to me. And they only left when I wrote them down but then more came. It continues to this days. That’s why it is 100 and counting.

So I have a question to those who have read to the end. What has been your take away from this blog? Has it helped or not? Is it applicable in your life? Do you have questions, concerns, or would want my thoughts concerning things either general or specific? Above all I do my best not to take sides or be involved in the schisms of isms. I like balance and riding the fences on some things. However I am firm on the essentials. My aim to know Him and to offer different views with different applications. Our life and issues do not come pre-packaged so neither will our growth or healing. I always want an open toolbox with the filter of 100% Scripture and 100% Spirit.

Thanks to all those who have liked, following, reblogged, comments, and shared. I am excited for the next 100 posts.

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We Have These Treasures In Earthen Vessels – My Time In Nicaragua

I want to share some highlights from my trip to Nicaragua.

First off I want to say thanks all those that gave of their prayers. I needed them and felt them. Secondly I want to thank God and those that gave of their money. All the funding I needed came in which was truly a blessing. Without a couple key supporters I wouldn’t have been able to make it.

One of the only real “fears” I had about going was the 4 different plane trips and dealing with possible anxiety/panic attacks. Thankfully that was not an issue…being tall and on a plane was another thing. Nicaragua is considered one of, if not the safest country in Central America so that wasn’t a concern. Not once down there did I have a panic attack which I was thankful for too. It must have been time off of work that all the stress left.

Our team of 5 had a wonderful translator who was the son of the Pastor of the church down there. One of the woman of the team was also very astute with Spanish. We were able to stay at a hotel on a coffee plantation (D’Santos Hotel Boutique). Our daily activities were to meet with the children of the project during their lunch time, play group games, and hand out simple but well received gifts. After they left to go to their home we waited  some time and then left to meet them and their immediate family inside their  NiNICaa

homes to present gifts provided by their sponsors from the U.S. After that we asked each family if they wanted prayer. Most prayers consists of health issues like arthritis, heart problems, a job or better job, and nicer house. The trip wasn’t geared necessarily toward evangelism but one woman became a new creation and one woman was still a pre-Christian. All in all those beautiful people enjoyed our visits and prayers and that someone actually cares enough for them and don’t think that they are just another notch on their evangelist belt. Personally I just wanted to hang out with them in their houses just to get to know who they are as people, their stories, passions, and what they feel God has for them.

The outright hospitality of them was very heartwarming. Most of them offered a seat and most only have the usual plastic yard chair as their main seating and me, being a man of girth, had to decline sitting on them. I need a hefty chair. What was so sweet is one of the grandmothers knew I couldn’t fit on their chair so she cleared off this end table, that was full of stuff, just so I could sit down in their house. It blessed me richly. Another house, where the father worked from home cooking, they had a fan, which was rare in the houses, and they turned it on for our team while we were there. Almost immediately upon entering the father handed us all a grape juice box and an artificial Chicharrón which we all declined but he was insistent so I took it and drank the juice box and ate the snack, both of which were tasty.

The only Scripture that was clear in my spirit during the trip was 2 Corinthians 4:7 which says,

But we have these treasures in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.

Treasures. In the Greek treasure is thēsauros which means: the place in which good and precious things are collected and laid up, a treasury. And that is exactly who they are. You see we are all created in the image and glory of God. No matter what tribe and language and people and nation a person is from (see Revelation 5:9). When we speak to the light, when we speak to the promise, when we live without an agenda the power of God has so much more room to move.

Like most people who go to impoverished countries and go back to the U.S. there was a measure of shock and awe. The kids were flabbergasted to get a bouncy ball one day, a SFX deflating balloon another day, and water balloon game another. But I also realize that our frame of reference is what we have seen and lived and not another person. So for them life is different and for us life is different. And neither should be overly projected onto the other. But the contrast is stark. No iPads, smart phones, or constant mental stimulation. While those in the U.S., generally speaking, are not content but always wanting more, those in Nicaragua that I met are also wanting more though content and smiling genuinely. In the midst of the monetary poverty, the riches of intelligence and entrepreneurship were present. In the midst of the these “shacks” there are stores which I patronized while there. Poverty is a state of mind not a state of financial superiority.

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What I saw in Nicaragua is heart. Strength. Endurance. Faith. Faithfulness. Honor. Preference. Love. Joy. Smiles. Lots of smiles. Pain. Heartache.

I saw people. Like you and me. People who go through the same internal struggles that we all go through. While looking at developing countries most people probably look upon the kids, family, housing, and poverty with pity. Or just feel sorry for them or not even give a lick. But then I see Jesus walking. Compassion comes to mind. It’s different from pity…very different. Compassion in Greek is splagchnizomai which means to be moved as to one’s bowels…gut wrenching comes to mind. In Hebrew it’s racham which means to love, love deeply, have mercy, be compassionate, have tender affection, have compassion.

I loved the people down there. I take that back…I love the people down there. Inviting, hospitable, generous, loving, caring people. Like I said earlier I just wanted to hang out with them. Chill with them and get to know them and their stories. Bring inner healing & deliverance to them. Bring Jesus more and more.

Will I go back? If God specifically wants me to of course. If God asks, “Do you want to go again because it’s all good with Me,” then yes. If He doesn’t then no. I’ve shared the dream about a prophet guy naming three countries, Nicaragua being the only one I remember, so I will see what the other two are and go there if God shows me and provides the way. Personally I love traveling anywhere. I would travel to every country if possible but only God could perform such a thing because I don’t have money for that. I must confess that I’ve been envious for people my age, younger and older than me as well, and how they have traveled to so many different places and seen so many different things. Some go for pleasure and others go to preach, teach, and evangelize. I would love to be involved with that more so we will see. I’ve seen myself preaching and teaching but so many things seem in the way. I don’t know how others do it or get to do it. But that is for another blog maybe.

Thanks again for the prayers and support.

Jordan

Going to Nicaragua soon!

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So I am going to Nicaragua in 5 days and will be there till June 22nd. I would really like all your prayers and intercession. I’ve been hit with a sinus cold and anxiety about flying, which I’ve never had an issue with until I started have anxiety/panic attacks two years ago. I’m on anti-biotics and my Doctor gave me something for the flying anxiety.

I would really appreciate prayers for the trip and for God to give me “marching orders” so to speak. I am going without any real expectations but with expectancy that God will move and I will move right along with Him…you know the whole CO-laboring thing. My inkling is about something with land. Either cleansing it, sowing into it, or receiving from it. No details. Sooooo if you feel led to pray or if you have a prophetic word of encouragements or knowledge or wisdom, I am in the receiving mode.

Blessings fellow bloggers, readers, and family.

1 John 4:17b declares,

…as He is, so also are we in this world.

 

PS: the main religion in Nicaragua is Santeria which is a demonic, perversion of Roman Catholicism mixed with paganism, witchcraft, and idol worship. That will be the atmosphere that I will be infiltrating with Light when I am there so….prayer points to consider 🙂

 

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Going to Nicaragua!!

Dear WordPress family,

I am writing to share some exciting news with you. I plan to be part of a mission team traveling to Nicaragua June 16th through June 21st. Nicaragua is the second poorest country in our hemisphere (Haiti is the poorest). I’m going to sow into the land and the people. I have felt called to go ever since I had a dream with a well known prophet. In the dream this prophet named three names, two of which I don’t remember but Nicaragua is the one that stuck with me so I’m going!

My church, Harvest Christian Fellowship, in Frederick, Maryland, in partnership with Cristo Centro Church of Diriamba, Nicaragua, sponsors TrueHope4Kids, a ministry outreach to school age children in Diriamba. The children who participate in TrueHope4Kids would, were it not for this outreach, likely not attend school at all, but would be out in the streets begging or scavenging the local dump for “treasures” to sell to help keep food on the table at home. In exchange for their caregivers agreeing to keep them in school, TrueHope4Kids provides a nourishing meal and high-quality vitamins every school day, along with Bible studies and other educational activities. The children receive help with uniforms, and receive backpacks filled with school supplies every year. Over the years, many of the children and their families have surrendered their lives to Christ, become active church members and productive members of their community.

Our team will be serving and ministering to these children and their families each day, not only at the TrueHope4Kids location, but also visiting in their homes, hearing their stories, encouraging them and praying for their needs. We will likely do some street witnessing as well. And because we will be there during Cristo Centro Church’s 30th anniversary, we will get to join the congregation for their celebration, where we will have opportunities to serve and encourage them as well!

I am asking for your help to make this trip possible. First, I covet your prayers for success in raising funds and for productive ministry and safety for our team during the mission trip. I know that much prayer is vital for success, and I would be greatly encouraged if you would agree to pray for me and the whole team.

Second, I cannot make the trip without financial partners. I need to raise $1,320 to join this mission team, half before April 15th and the remainder by June 2nd. If you are able to help with the finances, I would be richly blessed. You can use the PayPal donate link below. Donations done that way will not be tax exempt unfortunately. To receive a tax deductible, receipt use https://giving.onthecity.org/hcfchurch/uauth_giving/new and put “NIC Missions 1 John 4:17” as the memo.

Thank you for your friendship, prayers and any financial support you are able to provide. I plan to provide a follow-up report to you when our trip is concluded.

Sincerely,

Jordan Gresczyk

 

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Your Pit Bull

As a person who has had two Pit Bulls before and several German Shepherds I can attest to the beautiful breed of the American Pit Bull Terrier AKA American Staffordshire Terrier AKA Dog

Dear River,

I want to tell you a story about your dog, Zoe. We found her cowering at the pound. She wasn’t barking like the other dogs. She was simply laying there, looking up at us. The tag said, “lab mix” and she was slated to be killed in a week. We fell for it, thinking we were buying a lab.

She is not a lab. She is a pit bull.

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As Zoe grew, we came to realize the pound had lied. I was scared. I felt irresponsible for letting this type of dog into my home. All of the stereotypes, preconceptions and worries filled my mind. Should I take her back? What would people think of us?

She is the definition of disenfranchised. When first time guests visit we lock her in her cage, not because she is dangerous, but because of unspoken fears. She receives wary glances from strangers as…

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I Love The Prophetic – Part 2

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I love the Prophetic!

I was at a Sunday evening meeting at a Church in a town just north of mine. There was a speaker by the name of Darby Slaton who shared. I went with an expectancy of God confirming things in my life. What I have found out is when I go and am asking God for confirmation regarding certain things He shows up and confirms other things. Come to think of it, if He isn’t speaking to those things maybe that is a confirmation in and of itself…I probably need a better grasp of what He is saying now…anyways. The Lord did speak through the person and was straight on, along with many others who had words that were straight on too. He spoke Isaiah 61:1-3 over me which says

The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,
Because the Lord has anointed me
To bring good news to the afflicted;
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to captives
And freedom to prisoners;
To proclaim the favorable year of the Lord
And the day of vengeance of our God;
To comfort all who mourn,
To grant those who mourn in Zion,
Giving them a garland instead of ashes,
The oil of gladness instead of mourning,
The mantle of praise instead of a spirit of fainting.
So they will be called oaks of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.

At first glance this is a very general word but to me it spoke with volume. This confirmed by desire and calling as an inner healing & deliverance minister along with traveling and speaking and confirms another vision in which I saw myself on a stage preaching and people coming to the front to get saved and healed(after I saw that vision I wept and asked God, “Is this me?” and “Can I do this?” I wept because it is my heart’s desire and want to be walking in my full birthright and destiny). This goes along with what the speaker said about how I lost my voice as a child and have been regaining it. Regaining because it was stolen. The speaker also spoke about my desire for evangelism as a healing evangelist. I know there are probably several images that come with that title but I’m not talking about selling spring water or gems on TV. Healing is 100% gospel. If we are cleansed by His blood then we are healed by His stripes.

I think the image above is prophetic in itself because the Eagle’s head is turned and looking at you. God most definitely takes notice of His children. I love it because I’m not following a prophetic or a word but what God has already placed inside me. I do love the confirmations though. They are like sign posts letting me know I’m going in the right directions. The Eagle is one of the faces of God. I’ve had dreams of eagles and hawks too and they were very interesting.

He also spoke about God giving me ideas on how to make money in order to provide for my wife and I and future children. This is more of a “Hey, maybe start thinking about this and seeking the Lord to see if this is legit.” I’ve been wondering how a person like me with no credentials, except for Elijah House certificates, or super super-natural experiences can get involved in ministry. I don’t really know anyone involved in itinerant ministry in my circles and how to even do that….which is awesome because it will have to be God’s doing. Plus I am deathly afraid of public speaking…which is part of regaining my voice. I literally tremble when I have spoken from a microphone. I had a dream where they was a line of people going up to a microphone and I was the next person up and then woke up from the dream. Also, during a Sozo, I was in this open field where most of my walls have been destroyed and there was one section with a small section still up. I asked God to remove it and a microphone was on the other side. Some of this is on my previous post but I’m sharing again 🙂 I also had a word from a women at my church about God giving me understanding but soon He will loose my tongue and start speaking (which I will share at my local Celebrate Recovery meeting the second Monday of Feb.) Firstfruits maybe?

Currently I do I.T. Help desk work, which isn’t my passion, and I know in order to provide for my wife and I and future family it takes money. Lets be honest here. It takes money and I don’t want to live ‘In Gov We Trust’ but ‘In God We Trust.’

So these are just my thoughts and processes I go through when balancing my heart’s desire and reality. Receiving confirmations like I did are like a defibrillator for hope by keeping it alive. In the meantime I must focus on my Father and choose Presence over promise at all times.  I place where my soul rests in Him. A place where fruit is my foundation as opposed to gifting or service.

I’ve been walking with God for going on 11 years and I’ve gotten words before I was a Christian that haven’t come to pass yet. I need to do what Graham Cooke says and

Bring my future into today. See the character I need in the future that will sustain the gifting and bring that character into today.

Receiving confirmation via prophecy is a beautiful experience where God openly honors you among His children and world. Prophetic words are promises where we must co-labor with God for their fulfillment ,generally speaking.

The speaker looked at my shirt and it said New York City on it and mentioned about how God is moving in NYC and there was a meeting of business men where the Holy Spirit fell on the meeting. I personally love going to NYC and can’t wait to visit again.

I love looking back on the words I have received directly from my Father and through my brothers and sisters. It tells me that we are in this together. There are many of my readers who I would to meet but may never until Jesus returns or in heavenly glory. I look forward to that day. A time where, along with our older Brother Jesus, we as sons and daughters are fully known and loved by God and ourselves.

 

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My Favorite Books

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Before I was following my Father, I hated reading. It was the ultimate kill joy of summer when I had a “summer reading list” as a child. I may have only read one or two books and did only one book report out of all of high school. Then, when I starting following my Father at the age of 20, I loved reading. I can’t get enough of it. I don’t have an exuberant amount of books…but I wish I did! It is probably because I am an introvert by nature and a Teacher Redemptive gift. I just felt like sharing the books I love and, if you haven’t read them, maybe you would get out of them as much as I did. This list is in no particular order and consist of both fiction and non-fiction.

The Bible by Holy Spirit and men moved by Him – Prefer NASB, AMP, and NKJV

The Shack by Wm. Paul Young

The Shack Revisited by C. Baxter Kruger

Wild at Heart by John Eldredge

Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge

Love & War by John and Stasi Eldredge

Normal Christian Life by Watchman Nee

Mere Christianity by C. S. Lewis

Messy Spirituality by Michael Yaconelli

This Present Darkness and Piercing the Darkness by Frank Peretti

The Auschwitz Escape by Joel Rosenberg

Being With God series by Graham Cooke

Permission Granted by Graham Cooke

The Case for Faith by Lee Strobel

The Problem of Pain by C. S. Lewis

The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning

The Pursuit of God by A. W. Tozer (had dream where I was in a huge library and climbed one of those old school library ladders and picked the book off the top shelf. So I bought it)

Boundaries by Henry Cloud and John Townsend

The God Chasers by Tommy Tenney

Victory Over the Darkness by Neil T. Anderson

What’s So Amazing About Grace by Philip Yancey

Visions From Heaven: Visitations to My Father’s Chamber by Wendy Alec

The Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancey

This Day I Was Crucified by Gene Edwards

Transported by the Lion of Judah by Anne Elmer

The Circle Series by Ted Dekker

Come Up Higher by Paul Cox

Exploring Heavenly Place Volumes I & II by Paul Cox

Defeating Dark Angels by Charles Kraft

A Celebration of Sex by Douglas E. Rosenau

Spiritual Revolution by Patricia King

For Men Only by Shaunti and Jeff Feldhahn

Developing Your Prophetic Gifting by Graham Cooke

Deadly Emotions by Dan Colbert M.D.

The Stronghold of God by Francis Frangipane

Agenda 21 by Glenn Beck

Beautiful Outlaw by John Eldredge

Fathered by God by John Eldredge

For Women Only by Shaunti Feldhahn

Elijah House Prayer Ministry materials

And now here are a few I look forward to reading in the future

Prophetic Wisdom by Graham Cooke

Dissociative Identity Disorder: Recognizing and Restoring the Severely Abused  Volume One by Tom Hawkins, Ph.D. with Diane W. Hawkins, M.A.

Multiple Identities: Understanding and Supporting the Severely Abused  by Diane W. Hawkins

The Weight of Glory by C. S. Lewis

These are among a few I still want to read along with many, not yet written books. If you know of other book, fiction and non-fiction that have touched your life please comment below and I may add them to my list.

Be blessed, Beloved

My Short Testimony

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I wanted post my testimony since this is my 50th post. It’ll be short because I could fill many pages. This will be the cliff notes version.

I was born in Duluth, MN during a snow storm in which the nurses and doctors had to use their snowmobiles to get to the hospital. I was born premature(unsure how many weeks) and was 5lb 5oz. I was born jaundice. Before my third birthday I had pneumonia and was a bubble baby…not an actual bubble but more like a square.

At some point before I was three I was attacked by, what I describe at my age, as animalistic demons. I would be in my crib and be trying to get away from something my parents could not see. I then began sleeping in between my parents but was still harassed and was trying to get away from the demons. My parents were involved with deliverance ministry and were or had taken in an individual who had several spirit horses which empowered her. One one point this women walked up to my mother with a knife in her hand and my mother asked her what she was doing. As she approached my mother, my mother said, “in the name of Jesus” and immediately this woman hit what was like a brick wall and couldn’t move closer. This was the first time this woman saw and felt that God’s power was stronger than her spirit horses and since then got delivered…back to me. Through discernment and prayer this demon was there due to an issue between my parents (sometimes the enemy harasses the weaker/defenseless vessels). Out of repentance I was no longer harassed after that.

I have been spared at least 4 times from certain tragedy. Once I was almost attacked by a huge snapping turtles when I was under 3 years old and my faithful German Shepard kept knocking me on my feet and barking at that turtle. That turtle could have easily snapped off a limb at that age. Another time my whole family could have been involved with a huge pile up on an interstate but my mother was prompted, of all place, to go get donuts before we drove home. We did and the 15 minutes it took for that led to us being behind that pile up 15 minutes late. Another time I fell from a second story construction site on our property on a concrete floor and was knocked unconscious and awoke to that same German Shepard licking my face. I could have died or been severely injured or paralyzed. The fourth time was when I was crossing a street and only looked one way and came an inch away from being hit by a car which was going over 40 mph. The last two instances, during ministry time, I saw angels protect me.

After moving from Duluth to MD my parents moved into a “haunted” house. The usual strange things happened in that house. Things falling off shelves. We have thick shag carpet where you would have to use muscle to close and open doors and they would slam shut a lot. My oldest brother saw an animalistic demon there and rebuke it in Jesus’ name and it vanished in thin air. My parents took authority over it all and demonic activity ceased. We then moved to another house. The tenants of the property after us were told about the activity and wanted to speak with the demonic spirit…two weeks later they left too.

I was went to a Christian school for Kindergarten and was homeschooled by my mother from 1st to 7th grade and skipped 5th grade. I started public school in 8th grade to 12th. By the time I was in between 10th and 11th grade is when I got caught up in drugs and the whole teenage rebellion thing. Life at home wasn’t fun due to parents hating each other and divorcing when I was 18 and had graduated high school.

I then moved with my mother back to my MN and I got caught up with more drug activity. Through all my childhood and adulthood I believe in God and Jesus Christ but just never walked with Him. At one point I was watching CBN (700 Club) and got convicted and destroyed my drugs/paraphernalia. Then got deceived again by someone telling my God doesn’t care if I smoke a little weed.

Then at one point, while at work, a ministry put pamphlets on everyone’s cars. I took it home and read it and was curious for more and went to their website and read more and more articles about God’s judgment and wrath on sinners. I got the fear of God in me…not the proper fear but it worked. I felt nothing but shame and condemnation from these articles. But God used them to wake me up to seek after Him. Long story short this ministry is a cult whose leader is now in prison for 175 years for sex crimes. His name is Tony Alamo if you care to know.

So I was riddled with shame and joy at the same time. I was confused but God was working. I went to a local evangelical church during this time. I would weep and weep during worship and it would abruptly end with greeting one another…which was awkward because I had tears and snot and needed tissues and not a hand shake lol. So I found a different church that had power and believe in God’s spiritual gifts because I need them. I learned a lot in that charismatic church and very thankful for them. About a year later I moved back to MD. I started going to another Charismatic church which was “cutting edge” and really pressed into the things of the Spirit. I learned a lot from them too but they are human and I got wounded and gossiped about and such so I left and went to another beautiful church that I am at now.

What I’ve learned through it all is that God truly is Love and sought me even when I did not seek Him. He found me when I thought I couldn’t be found. He healed when I thought I couldn’t be healed. He taught me when I thought I wasn’t teachable. I always had a sense of righteousness even in my sin and darkness. Someone He put in me before I was born. There are many other things I could write but I won’t at this time. All I can say is he who has forgiven much, loves much. I love God, my wife, family, friend, brothers and sisters in the Lord, and those yet to know how much our Father loves them.

If you read till the end, thanks. I hope it ministered to you and if you don’t know Jesus would you want to know Him? He is the closest brother, friend, Father, or even Mother that you could ever know. He wants to know you and He wants to be known by you. Would you except Him into your life? It’s not a religion or a set of rules like dos and don’ts. It is a personal, other-centered, loving relationship between you and Him. He wants to Father you and heal you and deliver you and set you free from all that holds you bound. Seek Him and you will find Him. Ask Him into your life and to give you eyes and hears to see and hear Him. It’ll be the best decision you have ever made in your life. Trust me. I’m living proof to His goodness and faithfulness.

 

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2014 in review

Thanks to all of those who follow, like, comment, share, and reblog my posts! I am overwhelmed by the amount of people who contribute and sharpen me in this adventure. Please continue to share, comment, and like. Let us see where 2015 takes us all!

A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 7,100 times in 2014. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 6 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

 

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One of my recurring dreams

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I’ve had this dream or a version of this dream for almost 10 years now. Sometimes I think I know what it means but most of the time I don’t. I had one version where I thought I would get them anymore but I still did. A short preface to these dream is that they take place at the first restaurant I worked at in the town where I spent most of my childhood years. I’ve had the dream at another restaurant I worked at when I moved to another state. Both were Steak & Seafood places and both have since gone out business but that is neither here nor there…or maybe it is. The dream this morning was this:

I am waiting tables at this restaurant I used to work at when I was ages 16-19. This time I was just starting and didn’t have a full section to wait on but was in training from what I could gather. I acted and felt like I was gone for some time from the restaurant but came back to work there. There were some of the same people working there especially in the kitchen. I had my first table and I was suppose to bring them to the particular table number but, being as I havn’t worked there for awhile I wasn’t sure where it was(this section wasn’t used much so I had to look at the seating plan but the rest of the place I knew the seating plan). By the time I found the table I knew the customers left the restaurant. Also in the dream that same room which wasn’t used much had a fair amount of people in there then it cut to a scene where all the people had to leave because there was a stack of 12 pack boxes of soda cans stacked and partially fallen over and leaking.

Now most of my dreams have the same type of stuff happening. I’m waiting tables and my food is burnt, cold, not ready, can’t find the table, customer’s left etc. Sometime I forget my PIN number to log into the POS(Point of Sale system) Nothing goes right. The one dream I had that I though was the resolution to them all was when they restaurant closed down and I was with my earthly dad. The only thing I can ascertain is “waiting” means waiting on the Lord and my frustration in the dream is being frustrated waiting for Him to do something in my life?? Anyone good as interpreting dreams? I’ve read books and most people say they same things like “this number means this” or “that means that” but I also know that dream interpretation is very different and what one thing means for one person can means a completely different thing for another. I would love the interpretation but I will wait in the question with Jesus and rest till it comes 🙂

I know all the Scriptures about dreams and what they are and what they are not. I would prefer visions as they are more literal in nature. Come to think of it I remember a prophetic word I received that I have and will have a relationship with the Lord even in my sleep. I’ve been accused of holding my hands up in worship during sleeping and talking/mumbling often too. Couple nights ago I had a dream in between the time of 6:40ish am when i woke up and fell back asleep and awoke to my alarm 7:00am.

 

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Elijah House Training completed!

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Thought I’d share that I recently received my Elijah House Prayer Ministry 202 certificate of completion! A year prior I completed the 201 class and received a certificate for that as well. It is my desire to get into this type of ministry.

Inner healing & deliverance is a passion of mine and I believe all of us could benefit from prayer ministry/counseling in our lives. It’s good to appropriate all He has done for us through the Five R’s:

Recognize

Confess and Repent

Release through Forgiveness

Reckon as Dead

Resurrect (bring to life)

I also believe in the Sozo ministry and Sapphire Leadership ministry along with Aslan’s Place ministry and Restoration in Christ ministry. I know there a many more out there but I only have exposure to the above listed. I believe that I should utilize as many tools as possible. It’s my desire to get into this type of ministry and am currently semi involved in Sozo and am in a part of a local Healing Rooms.

All of these are based off the finished work of Christ and shed blood from the garden of Gethsemane to the Cross and the resurrection and ascension of Christ. I believe Inner Healing should, generally speaking, be done prior to deliverance. Remove the garbage and the flies leave by default. I do not believe there are demons under every rock….but sometimes they are under every other rock.

That is all 🙂

 

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Good morning, Holy Spirit!

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Good morning, Holy Spirit!

May I rest in Your new mercies. Thank You that I don’t need to ask You to come for You haven’t left since I first time I asked You to come. Thank You for the ability to forgive today. Thank You for the ability to respond today out of my spirit and not react out of my soul. Thank You for being my Comforter. Thank You for being Another of the same exact kind. Thank You for leading me into all Truth and revealing the Father and Son to me. Continue to cause the scales on my eyes to fall so I may see the salvation You offer to me. Thank You for being the Wind that blows away the dross and the Breath that breathes Life and Vitality into my whole being. Thank You for making my soul to prosper and my spirit to grow and my body to be healed. Thank You for giving me the language of heaven and angels in which no darkness can listen to or comprehend. Thank You that You are God and I do praise and worship You, Holy Spirit. You are Lord and I give You Lordship over me. Come and enthrone all thrones of my soul. Expose those thrones that are occupied by darkness. Thank You for the gift and ability to repent. Smear me with all You are. Thank You for being in me and with me. Thank You for being a Person and for being personal with me. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You for coming with the mother heart of God. Thank You for being a Father to the fatherless and a Mother to the motherless. Thank You that Your gifts and fruit are available to me when needed. Thank You for stepping into me and bringing Life and renewing me and making me born again by Your will.

Amen

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Poem – Awake

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Awake Awake

We are those awake

Breathing Breathing

Holy exchange

From Him Through Him  To Him

Is my everything

Yearning expectancy

Satisfied in the waiting

Leaning Leaning

The crutch of Glory

Rivers running

Flooding

Toes Ankles Waist Shoulders

Drowning

Hearing Whispers Whispers

Softness Coolness Eden

Splendor shrouds me

Secret Place abounding in me

Raptured and Captured

Safe and sound

Awake Awake

We are those Awake

 

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Lincoln Anointing?

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Last week or so I felt that I heard in my spirit, “You have a Lincoln anointing.” Never heard of it but I have always liked Abraham Lincoln and have done papers in school about him. FYI I believe we have an anointing from the Holy One and when people talk about the anointing of so and so I think it more of picking up the reins or carrying on the mission of the person who either dropped it or has passed into full Glory. Anywhoo I did Google it and found one article about it on Elijahlist.com by Bill Yount. I have asked others and they have had the same word over them. I have ideas about what it is but not yet fully (Prov. 25:2). Has anyone else heard about this?

The article is listed below

http://www.elijahlist.com/words/display_word.html?ID=10119

 

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Thanksgiving

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In the spirit of Thanksgiving, which was only 5 days ago BTW, I must say I am thankful for our Father’s Voice. For without it, I would still be in my Stockholm Syndrome.

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Come Up Here – God

COme Up here

Correct me if I’m wrong but I haven’t found a passage in the New Testament where the apostles prayed/preached/taught about asking for God/Jesus/Holy Spirit to come down…but I do see where God/Jesus/Spirit telling John “Come up here” and another where a person was caught up in heaven. We bring heaven down to earth because heaven is where we are seated. We are temple/throne of God on earth. If we realize where we already are it would change our whole perspective on…everything

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Q & A ?

I was wondering if those who read my blog had any questions that you were interested in me answering (attempting to answer)? So yea ask away!

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Fallen Perspective

i-wanna-live-a-life-from-a-new-perspectiveThe results of the fall of Adam was that he would look to the earth and the work of his hands for his worth and value. Notice though that before he fell he was commissioned to take dominion over the earth and tend to the garden. Both had to do with the work of his hands. Nothing has changed…except perspective. Before it was, I am therefore I do, after, I do therefore I am. All of God comes from His name, I Am. I Am does because He Is. That is the image we were created in. That’s why I firmly believe that you won’t know what to do until you know who you are. 1 John 4:17 As He is, so am I.

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Great Friday

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Today is Good Friday. I would call it Great Friday. It is when the God of the Universe chose to suffer at the hands of men our wrath. He truly was bruised for our iniquities. By His stripes we are healed. He didn’t have a Jewish lynching…it was the world’s lynching. Flesh was ripped from his muscle, bones, and tendons. He was so whipped that he didn’t even look like a man. God, in Christ, reconciling the world to Himself. Can you look into His eyes and see the Passion? Can you see the fire in His eyes? Can you see that He is and has made all things new? Can you read between the lines that were upon His body? Can you see Him looking at you while on the cross? Can you see His lips saying, “I did this for you.” You know what I see?

I see Love. Not some ooshy gooshy love but the kind of love that makes someone fight to the death for you…even while a person reviles and spit upon them. The kind that loves despite the lack of response. The kind of love that beckons you to be loved. The kind of love that sets you free. The kind of love that one weeps out of pure joy. The kind of love that is patient, kind, gentle, and not holding things against kind of love. The kind of love that when you see it you rise above things. The kind of love where you no longer see yourself apart from it. The kind of love that provides the lens by which live our life. Love. The kind of love that shows you open cell doors and beckons you to just walk out of them. The kind of love that shows you your worth and purpose. The kind of love that literally permeates your whole being and changes you inside and out. Love. The kind of love that heals the deepest wound of your soul. The kind of loves that loves you just as you are. Love. The kind of love that only One can provide and sustain. The kind of love where nothing else matters. Love. The kind of love that, once felt, is never a memory, but a constant companion. Love.

Great Friday

But this Great Friday is but a precursor of glorious Sunday. Death thought it won…but oh how it lost.

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Please forgive me

please_forgive_me_by_geekindisguise-d4rv291To Whom It May Concern,

Please forgive me.

Forgive me for holding your sins against you when God doesn’t. (2 Corinthians 5:19)

Forgive me because unlike God I have judged your outside without caring for your inside. (1 Samuel 16:7)

Forgive me for telling you to do as I say and not as I do. (Matthew 23:3)

Forgive me for teaching man is for the Sabbath and not Sabbath for man. (Mark 2:27)

Forgive me for sewing back together the veil that God tore in two. (Mark 15:38, Colossians 2:20-23)

Forgive me for making my denomination the denominator and not the numerator. (1 Corinthians 12:14-27)

Forgive me for controlling you and callings it shepherding my flock. (Matthew 15:9, Colossians 2:22)

Forgive me for exposing your skeletons and not helping bury them. (Galatians 6:1)

Forgive me for gossiping and calling it a prayer requests. (Proverbs 11:13)

Forgive me for esteeming and valuing my opinion and viewpoint above yours. (Philippians 2:3)

Forgive me for making my light shine instead of letting my light shine. (Matthew 5:16)

Forgive me for calling you, our fellow brothers and sisters in the Lord, “sinners saved by grace” instead of saints. (Romans 1:7)

Forgive me for keeping you from taking Communion because you aren’t a member of my church. (Matthew 26:26-28)

Forgive me for elevating the Bible above a relationship with Jesus. (John 5:39)

Forgive me for telling you God doesn’t heal anymore. (1 Peter 2:24, Isaiah 53:5)

Forgive me for never asking for forgiveness. (Ephesians 4:32)

Forgive me for asking for honor but never giving it. (Romans 12:10)

Forgive me for not allowing freedom in worship. (Isaiah 29:13)

Forgive me for separating sacred from the secular. (1 Corinthians 10:31)

Forgive me for not being like Jesus and accurately representing Him on earth. (1 John 4:17, 2 Corinthians 5:20)

Forgive me for using you but never giving you the wages due from your labor. (1 Timothy 5:18, Romans 13:7)

Forgive me for highlighting and honoring the seen members and not the unseen. (1 Corinthians 12:22-25)

Forgive me for my desire for titles. (Matthew 23:7-10)

Forgive me for declaring my opinion like it was the word of the Lord. (Colossians 2:22)

Yours truly (and sometimes untruly),

The Church

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