Healing

Regret – Poem/Lyrics/Whatever

Things to regret

Regretful of the things

Regret is a cloud

That hovers over dreams

It clips all my wings

I try to regrow them but it stings

But my tears help the fallow

Providing seedlings for the morrow

I wish to edit harrow

But God watches over swallows

He’s the Lamb that was slain

Before the earth became

King on a hill

Blood and Water that was spilled

My life written by His quill

My name’s listed on the will

 

 

 

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this is where i’m at…but i digress

Greetings,

It’s been awhile. Five months. Joyful times and trying times. Aimless yet hopeful. Aiming yet unsure of a target.

I know I’m not alone. I don’t know which was worse. When I was in my early 20’s I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I was solely present-minded but not in a good way. No prospects, aspirations, or dreams. Now in my mid 30’s I feel like I know what I want to do yet it’s either too lofty or grasping for the wind. I moved to a big city (Philadelphia) thinking I would find something of substance but, as of yet, nothing. Don’t get me wrong I’m enjoying many aspects of Philadelphia like the food, activities, sights, street fairs, brews, etc. But I haven’t really found my place. I didn’t find my place where I previously lived either but that was due to other factors like family drama and passive aggressive family member going behind my back to break my then girlfriend now wife apart. I needed out of there. Now we are thinking of moving elsewhere in a few years. I’d like to live in a city where I don’t have to fear school aged children while walking across them on the street since they like to randomly attack people but I digress.

I also have an issue with shame, lack of self-confidence, latent anger, jealousy, etc. I can’t even count how many times I’ve threatened to delete my blog since apparently no one cares when I share them on Social Media. I did delete my blog’s FB page due to lack of any traffic. I desperately want to fit in and be not only accepted but approved and honored and celebrated, which some may say is unhealthy. But I don’t think it’s necessarily unhealthy. We are all individuals seeking to make our own stamp on the world but within a community of mutual respect and honor. I have yet found said community. The current fellowship I go to was amounting to a great church with people who looked after others and attempted community but found out, though I probably am judging with incomplete knowledge, there is community but the usual clique type community. Popular, hipster, millennial types. Church is less about being a community but more about serving the community. Church is life to some but that just isn’t my flavor. I love openness and togetherness. Diversity in community where every single person has a voice and something to offer, not as a commodity, but as an integral stone is the church God Himself is building that is outside four walls or a fog machine. I’m just being honest and may offend some but I feel it needs to be said. I mean why would believers need to schedule time to just chill only if nothing is happening at Church? Can we just hang out without it being scheduled in the Church’s bulletin or FB event? But I digress.

Back to shame and such. I know that everyone won’t honor everyone and everyone isn’t the QB/Pastor who gets all the attention and gifts and support. There are a lot of us on the line who protect, serve, and support those who say they care but hard to see it in action. On the flip side even public honor of another can be done as an honor to one’s self. I recently wanted a clip of a church who ordered pizza and made the delivery person come on stage and give a $100 tip. I mean, hey, I’d take a $100 tip but it seems—though I can’t judge their heart—that when you have to do it on stage with a radio voice and give it $10 a time to emphasize how great it is just seams…inauthentic.

It’s not wonder that Arthur Burk has teaching about Life After Church because so many people are leaving the institutional church for real community. Where everyone has a voice and not just the QB who wins the MVP. What if all the corner churches and mega churches stopped having Sunday morning services where we hear one sermon rehashed from last year and heard what the whole body has to say. What if what Joe has to say will set Paul free but will never hear because the “Man Of God” is the only one anointed? What if rest were actually practiced in fellowship? What is noise did not equal worship? What if sunday’s sermon did not equal intimacy with God? What if we, as a body of believers, actually starting growing up and fending for ourselves? What if we left the milk behind and ventured towards the carving block for a good slice of prime rib? But I digress.

Back to shame and such again. I want to be a celebrated individual within non commoditized community. What if honor is based and not placed. What if we honored people based upon God’s innate nature within them and not a false honor placed on someone due to their gifts or what we can get from them? We each have intrinsic value which reflects the nature of God. I sick of this more of God less of me bullshit. That was specifically regarding John the Baptist’s ministry. It must be more of God and more of me because I am an heir of God and co-heir with Christ. We are laden with guilt in the form of false humility. We have a glory people! Jesus has given us the glory to God gave to him and until we see ourselves and other that way the shame that I struggle with will continue to be a struggle. We…I…continue to resurrect the dead old man and live the law that we can’t fulfill. But I digress.

So what do I want for myself and family? Above all else to be where God wants us. To find our place as living stones in the river of God on this earth. I feel called to prayer ministry and teaching and writing(all of which will probably never pay the bills). I also would absolutely love to create a retreat for those who are living the above. Where they can come where there are no schedule or calendars. No pressure or stress to server or entertain others. A place of community where solitude and engagement with others are equally celebrated and supported. For the leader or the layperson, the pastor or the usher. The person who sits in the back pew or red cushioned chair with the plastic caps on the end of the chair backs. Where the communion table is not a preserved “grape” juice and paper wafer but a table of conversations and real food. A place where there are no positions, offices, denominations, or titles. A place where a suit and tie doesn’t make you more spiritual and a shirt and cargo shorts doesn’t make you “less religious”. Pretense and pretentious free. Where numbers don’t matter and intimacy isn’t on a scale to be judged by others. But I digress.

It’s hard to be in a holding pattern. Not knowing where you are or where to go can be quite frustrating. I can only do what I know to do until I know to do differently. I’ll work my IT job for as long as I need to. It’s not my passion but I’m doing it. I wish I could be one of those who never have to work a day of their life’s meaning their vocation is their passion and they are good at it. I want to also have a nice sized family and be able to provide for my wife all she needs and wants. I above all else want us to be and to do it together as a team. But so far I feel a failure at most of it right now. I’m overweight, not making monetarily what I need to have a family, don’t have a suitable house for a family, live in a city where it’s hard to raise a family, and hard to find encouragement to get to where I need to be. Like most men it’s hard to need somebody else. But that’s what I need. I wish I could find someone who can be a mentor in my life. Someone has the time and mutual bond to do so. I just really need encouragement. But I digress.

Thanks to those who’ve read till here. This post has really been a mixture of emotions, thoughts, ramblings, and heartaches. Deep down I am hopeful and optimistic. At the same time I’m fearful how others will react to this post but here goes nothing…but I digress.

 

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Copyright March by: Jordan Gresczyk

Let the Church say “Amen”

What’s in a word?

Amen.

Amen is literally a universal word:

The word “amen” is a most remarkable word. It was transliterated directly from the Hebrew into the Greek of the New Testament, then into Latin and into English and many other languages, so that it is practically a universal word. It has been called the best-known word in human speech. The word is directly related–in fact, almost identical–to the Hebrew word for “believe” (aman), or “faithful.” Thus, it came to mean “sure” or truly,” an expression of absolute trust and confidence. When one believes God, he indicates his faith by an “amen.” When God makes a promise, the believer’s response is “amen”–”so it will be!” In the New Testament, it is often translated “verily” or “truly.” When we pray according to His Word and His will, we know God will answer, so we close with an “amen,” and so also do we conclude a great hymn or anthem of praise and faith.

The word is even a title of Christ Himself. The last of His letters to the seven churches begins with a remarkable salutation by the glorified Lord: “These things saith the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation of God” (Revelation 3:14).

We can be preeminently certain that His Word is always faithful and true, because He is none other than the Creator of all things, and thus He is our eternal “Amen.” As our text reminds us, every promise of God in Christ is “yea and amen,” as strong an affirmation of truth as can be expressed in the Greek language.

It is, therefore, profoundly meaningful that the entire Bible closes with an “amen.” “The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all. Amen” (Revelation 22:21), assuring everyone who reads these words that the whole Book is absolutely true and trustworthy. Amen! – HMM

Thayers Greek Lexicon says this about the word:

It was a custom, which passed over from the synagogues into the Christian assemblies, that when he who had read or discoursed had offered up a solemn prayer to God, the others in attendance responded Amen, and thus made the substance of what was uttered their own

The most common meaning to Amen is: so be it. This is defined as “Let it be so” or “I accept it as it is”. For example, If you can’t change the reservation, so be it; I’ll travel on Monday. This phrase, often given as translation of the Hebrew (and Greek and Latin) amen, has been employed in the current sense since about 1600.

I think the word is overused. Way overused and I’ll explain why.

Let the Church stop overusing the word “Amen”

Have you ever felt like a word gets overused so much so it loses it’s meaning? Words have a way of changing meaning based upon the intention of the person speaking it. It’s not that the word has actually changed but that the word loses it’s intensity. Kind of like listening to the same song over and over again…it’s loses it’s original effect. My previous post is in the similar vein to this. We says things without knowing what we are saying.

How many times have you been in Church and hear people say “Amen” after every sentence? Or people are preaching about the horrible things happening in the world and then hear people say “Amen”? Do we know what the word means? Are we saying “so be it” when things are being preached that are not biblical or when wrongs are spoken of? Are we saying “Amen” when the devil is having a hay day with someone? Are we standing in agreement with negativity unawares? Amen is a word of agreement more so than just a reply to a statement given.

Agreements are a powerful thing. We make them and break them all the time. What are you saying Amen to today?

Amen is meant to establish God’s kingdom on Earth with His Truth.

 

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Why Bless Someone’s Spirit?

Have you ever felt like the third wheel? Or maybe you’re the person who just kind of tags along in other people’s lives. You’re just “there” but never feeling a part of what is happening. You’re there but not present. Not included. Not…legitimate. And in that illegitimacy you feel crushed, wounded, rejected. It isn’t that someone spoke bad to or about you, it’s just that no one has spoken to you.

What I love about the Trinity is that God, within Himself, has relationship. Other-centeredness. The Father honors the Son, the Son honors the Father, the Father honors the Spirit, the Spirit points to Jesus, etc. As our relationship with God grows deeper and wider we begin to notice the subtle differences in His voice. Sometime it’s the Father speaking to us. Other times Jesus comes and embraces us with His words. Still other times it’s the Holy Spirit nudging us. All equally important yes distinctively different. So it is with us.

No we are not the Trinity but we are three part beings made in the image and likeness of God and a trinity as well. The Scripture that points to this is 1 Thess 5:23 which says,  “Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be preserved complete, without blame at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.” Notice it doesn’t say “body, soul, and spirit” it says “spirit, soul, and body”.

So why do we bless our spirit? Well it’s the same reason we bless our body and soul. We pray for healing for the body by speak blessings over it. We bless our soul with good thoughts, a will towards God, a healthy mind, etc. Yet I’ve never heard someone bless someone’s spirit. Well that’s not totally true. I’ve heard many people bless the spirit indirectly. We talk about the spirit but never to the spirit. We are almost always speaking to a person’s soul but never address it as such because we don’t address a person and say their name all the time.

Imagine the third wheel experiences you’ve had. Take it further and imagine the other two talk about you but never to you. Now I know it sounds weird…especially since it’s a brand new topic that you’ve probably never heard of before. The person who first brought this concept to my life is Arthur Burk and this teaching. Funny thing is he first thought it was crazy as well. And it wasn’t even his idea to begin with.

It started as he walked with a lady through her suffering with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder)…suffered and no longer suffering BTW. After over two years of trying different inner healing and deliverance tools and concepts nothing worked until she came up with an idea. She asked Arthur, “Try speaking in the direction of my spirit.” He, thinking it was weird, decided to go along with this strange idea. He spoke to her spirit exactly like it is a part of her. Her reaction, my paraphrase: “I saw I was in a dark and dreary basement like in a dungeon. As you spoke to my spirit I noticed a dirty and damp rag in the furthest corner and underneath something quivering and moving…that was my spirit crushed and wounded.” After several weeks of speaking to her spirit DID was a thing of the past. She fully integrated which, done through the soul, can take 10 years of so. The thing is she was saved and loved Jesus…but her spirit was still broken and until someone came along and spoke to her spirit instead of about her spirit, until someone included her spirit in the conversation then healing came. 1 Cor. 2:11 says, “ For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so the thoughts of God no one knows except the Spirit of God.” And Prov. 18:14 says, “The spirit of a man can endure his sickness, but as for a broken spirit who can bear it?” 

This concept of speaking to a person’s spirit has been used in pregnancy as well…with amazing results. (Read here for more info) You see a spirit is not subject to the organics of a body but the body is dependent upon a spirit being present. That is why when a spirit leaves a body the body will then die. So as the baby is developing in the womb their spirit is alive and well and can be spoken to as the organics are developing and the soul is waiting to be expressed after birth since the soul is dependent upon the organics for expression. So what are the results of blessing a child in the womb? Pre-birth the baby responds to the voice of the person blessing the spirit. There have been babies who are breached and a person who has been blessing their spirit already can tell the baby that they are breached and the baby will move him or her self into the correct position. There are babies, whose spirit has been directly blessed by their father, who immediately after birth will hear their father’s voice and turn their head and smile to their daddy… There have been babies whose spirit were directly blessed with Scriptures of joy. Their dad or mom would find all the Scriptures that talk about joy and bless their baby in the womb. Once born their house is filled with nothing but joy and anyone who comes to the house gets smacked with joy. Our spirit are the center and essence of who we are and we exude that essence.

Our spirit is a seed and it carries a part of God’s DNA for us. And as a seed it must be nourished and cared for and unpacked. Left unattended it may grow but plateau at some point. But why speak to our spirit directly? I repeat it’s because it’s been left out of the conversation for so long. We address the spirit as, “John/Jane I call your spirit forward and to attention in the name of Jesus Christ. Listen to Word of God 1 John 4:17…” purely because it’s been left out. We clearly know our body’s voice. Our body will tell us when it’s hungry, hurting, or thirty. Our soul, the most active of all, will let you know it’s hurting, sad, happy, etc. So will our spirit, if we let it. Speaking to someone’s spirit is intentional. It brings legitimacy which is the most important thing our spirits need. Once you have ministered to a person’s spirit for awhile you don’t even need to address the spirit because the spirit will already be front and center to receive blessing.

Here’s a list of the other posts/videos I’ve posted about blessing our spirit:

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2015/01/29/blessing-your-spirit/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2015/02/06/blessing-your-spirit-part-2/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2015/02/13/blessing-your-spirit-part-3/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2015/02/17/blessing-your-spirit-the-fragrance-of-god/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2016/03/13/ive-started-a-youtube-channel/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2016/03/16/new-youtube-video-uploaded/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2016/03/18/new-youtube-post/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2016/03/31/blessing-your-spirit-your-spirit-and-land/

https://1john417.wordpress.com/2016/05/16/blessing-your-spirit-mephibosheth/

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I’d Love To Help In Any Way I Can

I feel my calling, design, and purpose is to help people. I am Elijah House certified and Sozo trained. I would love to be able to help in any way I can. Do you have questions? Concerns? Issues you can’t seem to overcome? Health issues where medicine doesn’t work or barely works? Maybe you are unsure what is fueling the anger you feel or the lostness you experience.

I am willing to listen first and offer help second. If I don’t know the answer I’ll look for the answer. If I can’t find an answer I’ll do my best to point you in the right direction. So please contact me at onejohn417@yahoo.com for any type of question, concern, or insight you may be seeking regarding any issue you may be facing.

I’m not easily shocked and everything shared with me is 100% confidential. If I may say with all humility I’m known by my friends and family as a person who always has a listening ear and where secrets are safe. There are many people hurting and don’t know who or where to go for help so I want to be a place/person where someone can go to. This is a 100% free service. So please contact me at onejohn417@yahoo.com.

Happy a Blessed day and Happy Thanksgiving

 

 

 

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Get back up!

Yes you fell…we all have and most will again. But it’s not your end. A righteous person may fall 7 times but will rise again. Yes even in the midst of your fall you are still righteous. As the Apostle Paul said, “Such were some of you…but you were washed.” You may have fallen today or an hour ago but with each rising comes a washing. Yes you messed up. Admit it. Come to grips with your actions. Then move forward. If you ever think that God gets tired of you just remember Psalm 121:4, “He who keeps you will neither slumber nor sleep.” He isn’t tired of you and He will never get tired of you coming to Him. I release the truth upon you that you have the ability to go boldly before the Throne of Grace to receive the mercy that you need. Go! Boldly! Never cease going! He is available! He is watching and waiting with His eyes on the horizon! Don’t you see Him! Run! Run faster! Because He will overtake you with His grace. I see Him removing the stained clothes you wear. I see Him washing your feet. I see Him, in you, beckoning for bear hug. I see new clothes! Clean clothes! I see Him calling you to His table of abundance. “Kill the fatted calf! Bring the best wine! My child is here and My love is forever upon them!” You know what? I see Him offering His seat at the table for you. Take it! Is is Him that calls you precious. It is Him that says, “You are worthy of my love.” I understand this is contrary to all religions and religious activity. But it’s true. You are no longer defined by your past or even your present. You are defined by the Great Definer. It is His Word that stands across the ages and sands of time. What He says counts! Not the enemy, not your soul, and not the accusers. Go and so no more! This is declaration and not a warning. Know who you are, know who He is, and know you and Him combined. Get back up! Stop trying to get a grip on Him…rest in His grip on you. You may feel lost but He is never lost and has found you. He is leading you back to still and restful waters. Soak it up! Rest! Let His love take you to where you never thought was possible! Let His perfect love cast away all fear. Let. Let the love do it….and not yourself. Let. Allow His Love to do it apart from you ability to grasp it’s all consumingness. Yes you fell and have fallen. It’s time to get back up. Will you allow His grace, mercy, and love overtake you today? It’s available right now…and will be available for all eternity.

 

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It’s not your fault

This clip is from Good Will Hunting. Just a word of caution. This clip shows a real issue and real emotions. If you’ve been abused this may bring up emotions or flashbacks. My aim is for healing, redemption, and to let you know that it’s not your fault. Please pardon the language:

 

It isn’t! You didn’t do it. You didn’t bring it on yourself. You had nothing to do with it. You weren’t being punished for who you are because who you are is a beautiful person God personally designed, thought about, and put together. You were not a mistake. What happened was caused by someone else and their sin, frailty, and wounding. They did it, not you. You are free from being responsibly for someone else’s actions. God can, and will, and is freeing you from the past. Remember that it is not your fault. You are free to be everything God created you to be. Do me and God a favor today. Take time off. Be you and be comfortable with you. Be who you are. It’s not about performance but about freedom. Truth was meant to set you free not keep you in bondage. I may not fully understand each one of your hurts, wounding, betrayals, abuse, or defilement but God understands. Jesus said, “Come to Me all of you who are burdened and heavy-laden and I will give you rest.” Receive His rest today. Let it go from mind to heart and from spirit to soul. Let His love wash over you like a hot shower. Cascading over everything you thought you weren’t. Let the ocean of His love and the waves of His grace come and speak to you. Let Him speak to you the thoughts He has that outnumber the sands of the sea. Open up your heart once again to Him who will never, NEVER hurt, wound, or betray you. He longs to hear your voice. He longs to hold your hand. He longs to be with you right in the middle of everything.

I apologize for any emotions or past experiences it may have brought back. Please don’t stuff or neglect emotions because they point to something and it can bring a chance for healing to come. Many of you need to watch it and receive the words and affirmation you’ve so longed to hear and believe. Some may not need to hear this but you may know someone who does. Pass it along. Share it, post it, like it, re-blog it not for me but for someone else.